Dear Jackal, if you have a social life, work and go oustside plenty, I don't see what's wrong with you. You have nightmares, which some people happen to have frequently, and you had suicidal thoughts that you didn't actually consider, which happens to everyone at least once in a lifetime. Please explain what is the actual problem, and please do not get offended by our advices. We are people from the internet, not freaking specialists.
ive come to the people of the internet because the specialists couldnt do anything. the real problem is the blacks outs , they keep getting longer and longer and i dont know what happens during them. but perhaps what some of you are saying that maybe this isnt insanity but something else is true. i wonder what it could be then.
Black outs arent really anything special jackal..
I'v got them during random things..mines are all really small but i got much of them
Like: when i go to the toilet. and i walk out the door..
I almost always stand still for 5 seconds.. and then i think: wait.. i didnt flushed the toilet yet o.O
and when i walk back into the toiletroom i'v already flushed..
really stupid but wel its not pretty cool....
anyways try clearing your mind.. i gues blackouts are caused by tomuch brain activitys.
Im not a pro.. but thats why i have blackouts most of the time.. because i have to much different stuff on my mind.
wel do you still have the nightmares?. because trying to write the things you did the whole day before sleeping.. and write what you have on your head or in your heart. wil clear your mind before sleeping..
I personly write my girlfriend every night.. not that she gets to read it but.. it gives me a clear minded feeling.. and my nightmares are almost compleetly gone so
Hope it wil help and.. let me tell you this jackal.. no one can help you here.. but only you.. because you know whats happening and you know what you have. no one can see what you see.. so try to solve it.. bij only advice.... but ... we dont have cures for it.. or other things that can help you..
we only are able to give you advice how to ignore your status and live with it..
trust me.. its the only solution if you dont know what to do.. I got damaged ears...
So i hear a continue wave sounding in both ears.. also high sounding noise
And the only solution i have is to deal with the fact i have it.. and accept it.. and live on.. trust me.. its a pain for me.. but still.. its dureble since im strong..
try to be strong.. you wil be suprised by your own will power..